hate me? then PISS OFF.

wakacha!!

smacks.. snugs.. smooches.. kisses... wait.. wad else can we haf we not been seen/ caught doing in public? well.. out goolying wif sweetards today.. aww, sara's unable to make it.. -pouts =( - but dun worry, im like so gonna see ya tmw!xP like tmw!! yayys! scary movie 4!

hahas.. like thanks jia'en! hmm, someone's been doing illegal actions huh? smuggling illegal.. oh, shall'n say.. -winkks- oh, well. today's fun? and im so crazy.. like hu cares.. lallas.. i noe im a lunatic outside.. hmm suspicious article? hahas. -winks, rae & fel- crap alot... like hell loads...
marriage to dance to clothes to money to love to...

hmm... other crazy stuff... hmmm, OMG, cant wait for thursday! dance! lets rock out on stage! like. lets go freestyle! punk!shake that booty sisters! yayys! at last.. some bursting is coming.. like i wait ages to move... been sitting at home sewing stuff. playing wif clothes, dolling myself up.. staring into books??. admiring myself? hahas.. self-obsessed, like hu cares? im going crazy.. stress results? hahas, not now.. but definitely losing control.. xP

wooo weee.. and!!! i screw up today's art. oh well, spot thinker! dat was by luck.. this is the worst piece of art i ever done, but again.. end of yr's gonna be diff. like diff..!

shalala!

alright and now, toodles.. gonna hit my bed now. im tired...

bye peeps... xoxo

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omg! guess wad! aidil's forming a dance crew!!

yayys.. like hiphop-breakdance thingy!

and im in it.. hippee.. like IN IT!

and, we're currently thinking of crew name!

like gosh, i cant wait to tell rae sara fel.. and more!

oh, i wonder wad de drew is gonna be like!

hus in? hus up? us down? like WAY COOL!

hahs! voodoo dance! -winks, aidil, wad you thinking!-

and wad future you thinking..participate in hollaback crew huh?

hahas.. and here comes.. _______ CREW!!

indeed.

so, i cant wait!!! lemme see.. like once or twice per week? omg!!!!

yikess. its way cool! rachel! felicia!sara! you reading this?

-for now we're just gonna keep this to ourselves- shh.

aidil, you rawk on! hahas.

so long chng classes! for now we will just go punk!

oops, not to forget, check this website!

its really terrific, you could check out more ;)

aidil's intro this webby to me: -some of my favs-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H3QnsR0MRzE&search=hip%20hop%20dance

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zRScbtfsdjc&search=hip%20hop%20dance

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8eNqaCfz_Ro&search=Ballet

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JcS4MDHrQMc&search=Ballet

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oa85DoU5rrA&search=hip%20hop

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cuDjv4yGVSI&search=hip%20hop

extra:

down the darkness aisle, along the narrow coarse path.

abandoned and thrown into a pool of entangled mess.

my twisted soul outside the closed universe.

my heart dying for some form of life....

weeeee.. hey gurlls! while you chics are out getting a snip.. im here home sweet home, enjoying music and listening to my brother bragging over this movie he watched recently.. ''poseidon! you want to watch? the people die.. the wave coming.. then the man singing... then the boat turn turn turn.. den the wave... blood.. -blah blah-'' oh gosh.. look at those sentences.. hahas, oh well... those vivid descriptions flowing through his mind.. and again '' gun.. save the girl.. splash the boat.. ''[i din alter a single word here!] now i got a rough idea wads poseidon!xP

hahas... and for now, i'm sqoosh wif art.. im supposed to do my prep. work like way before hand.. -urghs- help! i need inspirations! chocolates!!!!! oh, i want candies too!!

appearance and reality.. lemme see... im gonna surf the net to check out more... =) wait, im wondering wad you girls' snip snip gonna be..

alright..and wondering should i dye my hair... hmm, i tink i better not...

i will be a goody to shoe now.. x) will do well for end of year!

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to peeps: todays post is personal, so if you think you cant gonna take it, and think im crazy or some lunatic, den you are advise to skip this post! =) im not chasing you peeps, but.. yea. de choice is yours!

while sweetards! i guess you chics should know what all these mean to me!

DETERMINATION, STRIVE, SUCESS, DEVOTION.

for dance it is.. for i will.. de only stage i could turn to.

express the inner me. im deprived of dance! exams shoo.

i need to explode, run. evacuate. hide.

a dream to go abroad for dance. russia, new zealand watever it is.

a professional one i will

and if i'm gonna be tough enough, a psychatrist wil be what i try to aim

watch this half sister and bro!

-you will see, not all the money come from your mum- do you ppl even noe daddy went bankrupt once to send you ppl overseas? or you indespicable ppl dunno huh? and you ppl could still act like nothing?

oh please!

for dad: wait, i will make you proud. we 4 will!

for mum: hold on, and you shall see.. de 4 will shine!

[[i will.. i will.. i will train myself hard. versatile i will be.]]

benjamin: future pianist/mathematician

his been practising piano loads this days - even when im sleepin! although im mad at you for not giving me peaceful nights to sleep but it help you from staying away from com!-you have made big improvements- *his a math genius*

bryan: future atheletic/ inventor/ violinist

great sprinter! oh speedo!! cool at fixing stuff! alot of creative ideas and ... been helping out alot at home wif mum and dad wif tools and stuff.. And a beginner for violin! =)

bjorn: future pianist/ violinist/ dancer/ opera singer xP

oh well, his awesome! his learning piano now, and lil.of violinist. his good in dance too! oh lala boy, his free of his movements! and his vocal. but his still young. his yet to choose!

lets us prove dad and mum.
they din waste their time and effort on us!

yayys... for we 4 will and we shall.. yi's we shall! ming,hua,xiang,xi!

shalalals...

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As for today.. hmmm, was... really confused but it was great... had a shopping spree with my mum.. =)

-as what i say, no matter whatever happens, i love my mum and dad-

was really tired for yesterday fun at sentosa, so as my daily life, whenever i sleep i will locked de door, -well, i feel secure?- and den, kabagalam, my mum smacked my butt, - iwasfreaking shocked-, and she said i better go washed up now.. we haf to head down to ica buliding to make my ic. -she called it cia buliding- hahas.. and if i dun make it by today, i will haf to imprison for 5 years!!! she read the letter send in two days ago? And dat is nuts!! worst of all, on sat is closes at 12pm! and now its.. 10!

so de first thing i said in the morning on my bed was: what! nutss! and my mum said yeah! -everything zoom across my head! door unlocked? imprison? cia? ic? butt?

hahas, so sha lalalalala, rush everything and..

down to take a cab! -and now she called it sia building!- =) and when we reached dere, like gosh... it was super packed! like.. packed!?! so when to queue and stuff.. oh

welll, its done, used a old photo, sheesh! i look dumb! real dumb!

but who cares? its just an ic? lalala,den me mum bjorn went to eat! down at bujis.. hmm, nice.. hehe! while waking, guess its window shopping, we walk past a badge shop and i stop, i rmb.. i had a photo of chia lynn.. hehes, i could make one.. den my mum ask me if i wanted? -stunned a lil.- so i said.. i had a friend miigrating so could i..? hahas.. so she paid for it.. yayys! so, later on.. my mum made one for bjorn too! hahas, and i wrote on the badge: if found, please dial 97899727.. hahs my mums no. yayys! its cool.. and i pin it on his shirt. hahs.. funn.. doubly..

den we headed down to bras basah, mum ask if i need specs. cus shes making one too.. i been askin her for a really long time, she always ans. me.. u need it? next time? and wow, ok-ay, so i was like.. but i dun really this time i guess. but she ask me to check..

heh, but meanwhile its a long queue and again, we went to macs. cus bjorn was whining and bugging for ice cream, BUT unfortuanately.. the icecream machine was down.. hahas, too bad.. so mum ordered this new .. pepper drumplets set? we ate, my bro ate one, she ate one, and so did i.. de last piece, she insisted me to eat.. hahas.. ok-ayys! -wow again- gosh.. im so...

anyway back to specs shop, heheh.. i really din nid it, i dun wanna haf it either, a waste of money! soi check, and results were i could choose.. so of cus i din want it.. and guess wad, bjorn check his eyesight too! and his was.. like 60 degreess.. hey, his only 5 and he's.. so, but din need it now.. so only my mum got her specs. chose one for her! yayys!! she got a groovy one.. purple, dark.. bold.. express her artistic her!

next she was asking me where to go.. i said anything, suntec? quennsway? she said how bout far east? den i say anything.. but we ended up to raffles city.. hahs.. and guess wad.. as i haf been wishing long for cargo longs, she took 2 for me! and ask me to try! i was... -urghs- touched, and.. i like these two shirt been looking at it.. so my mum took it? doubly touched- my gosh.. she bought one cargo pants herself and 4 suit for me? she spent more than $200.. i meann.. but.. why is she so nice to me at times, and terribly bad to me? why 2 both extremes? why? shes so unpredictable! and watever it is.. im back hme now... sitting here still shocked.. i better go eat now.. =) still elated over today..

happy happy...

your warm hands hurt but yet touched me

your every little meanings and purpose

your both two 2 extremes

puzzled me, for love is de ans.

moved but yet confused

for every scream and hit came from you

pain but i wanted so.

for i love as hurt and smiles

shimmers down my lil. me

you made me you contruct me

me, your ending product

with love, it is..

as pure as it holds..

and i noe, here i am..

more to unfold, for love it will

i love my mum! thanks!

happy mother's day!

yayys!! gonna write 2 post today!! one for yesterday and one for today!!
hippee!! lemme start off wif yesterday!! lalals..
yesterday was fab! way fun than ever!! And this is my first time getting sun-burn, tan line.. it is red, brown, itchy and burning! isn this sun burn?
hahas, but who cares! IT WAS HEAPS FUN! traLALAs.. and my tan line was-wow!- hahas, 1st time... like yayys!! oh well, gosh! de day begins by meeting up wif sara, jing ying and rae at ginza bus-stop

and we headed down to harbour front to meet jia en, fel and chia lynn.. so we sweetards headed down to sentosa..

we settle at palawan beach, and here is our fav. spot:

hehheh, and off to tan!! lalas.. we dipped to the water. soak in there.. and next was screams, chia lynn was like: DERES A FISH! or is it just a seaweed? one of us ask.. so hahas, and we found out dere was really fishes! like gosh it swim through my legs and wriggle at my body.. yikes! many of us encounter it all except for jingying! great isn she?? hahas... den we went to sun tan!

hahas, watch this, fel!! ya soak in sand!! yikes! oh fun fun!

alright, so now food! its lunch time, went to wash our feet!

we went to eat at delifrance after the long tram-ride, -we went round and round.. not for fun but becus we were lost.. hahas.. -

after eating, we went back to tan again! hahas, later on sara and rae spotted lightning, so we all dun wanna be strike dead in de ocean- water is a good conductor of electricity!- so went to wash up, and gosh.. dere was a long queue, so we decided to bath together.. -winks- together we bath.. hahs, and jing ying took some secret snaps!!

and again a long queue for bus back to harbour front, so we all walked out.. hahas, and again jing ying took secret snaps!

we found some quirky stuff, de waves were... weird -dat remind us of tsunami- and we found a mask on de floor- dat reminds us of sars- and again no sign of birds -dat reminds us of bird flu.. isn there sth weird?? wait.. is the end of the world really coming? hahas..

oh well, reached harbout front in no time.. jiaen and fel had to go off first so de rest of us went to eat dinner! yayys, and we all went hme. was reeally fun. and i better control dat excessive munching mouth of mine if i want to get a hot body! no, im fat!! ya see sara and fel. dey are drop dead gorgeous and hot!!

-im fat! and over-sized in conclusion of day-

[will add in pics soon..]

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wahahas, im back... sorry, double personality! well, 2 posts in a day..
tottally cool, in which of 2 posts carrrying 2 diff. tensions.. oh well..
traLALAs, tmw! sentosa. beach, sand, sea, chia lynn felicia sara rachel jingying.. what could be better? woohoo.. going siao and high now..
9 more hours to leave my house and ginza to meet my hot sara first and den rae and jingying.. yayys.. sry jia'en and fel.. meet you guys at harbour front!! =) alright, this gonna be a short post.. hahas.. and from now on, i shallln blog any negative stuff here.. unless.. hmm.. no, i guess i wun... oh well, thanks weiqian, weijun, sara for conforting.. loving peeps..

and for now, im off.. toodles.. xoxo

all i ever wanted was to live in a loving family.. a family with love..
is this too much to ask?

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TO EACH AND EVERY INDIVIDUAL, YOU ARE IMPORTANT AND SPECIAL TO ME. I MAY NOT BE ABLE TO EXPRESS THE IMPORTANCE OF EACH OF YOU PPL HOLD IN MY ENTIRE LIFE, AND SO HERE I AM TO SAY: I LOVE YOU PEEPS LOADS FOREVER AND EVER. AND I WILL AWALYS BE HERE FOR YOU. =)

today, everyone was really emo. everyone burst into tears literally.. we had a really great time tearing and laughing.. guess its the results of stress.. felt suffocated and encaged...was really blah blah black boom!.. i just cant let it out nor swallow it down, was )(*&^%$#@ -its aint vulgar, just unexplainable- and de stupid maths question i spent the whole day tryint to figure it out... -urghs-

but anyway the messages below are to ppl who went insane today at ginza, -tearing, laughing, cracking, chucklings, and screaming..:

sara: smiles aint the solution, you would still feel anguished, and the pain reminscences brings, but instead trying to feel it with the heart.. glad that you are trying.. =) byes to the slits and blood, for they are just gonna be a dreadful burden adding on to you. scars, beware! *winkks, lets curb the addition together, and together we shall. byes to chem for now! *

rae: it seems that now in secondary school life you had realise what is torment and pain. im proud of you that you been putting yourself in others shoes, and been helping others in need. But again, do not let whatever problems you are facing now pull you down, n instead lead on the usual happy lifestyle, and once let the ppl around you feel happy with you *thats your talent*

weiqian: lala, no matter how you gonna hide yourself in a corner, or be 'violet' frm incredibles, invisible. you simply cant hide that weak heart of yours. hey, you aint alone dear. you can always confide to us! even though i hardly know you well or even talk, i can still see that you feel lonely.. you seem to haf difficulties in trust. but just remember, you could always try. *go siao siao let us... hahas*

felicia: you been tough and strong, and i haf seen thorugh it.. hiding from me is not gonna help, see.. at least you burst it out today... like sara, putting up a brave front would only be a temporary help, but facing n solving it would last for long. just hope you are in it. im indeed proud of you. *my lil.one, you been great!*

jing ying: hey, siao ding dong.... willing to show your trueself today..you can go around being vocal as you seem, loud and outgoing happy kid, but i noe deep down you, ya just a soft kid, could sense emptyness and need of love from you, sweetie just wanna let you know mother's day is an important day regardless of whatever situation you are in, alright? *love is like you n me!*

chia lynn: aww, i know you are going to leave singapore soon.. mirgrating to vietnam huh? and im really gonna going to miss you loads.. although you were elusive and weird at times, and that because of this, im attracted to you.. ya really a great artistic person i haf met.. gona feel some absense in me when ya leaving..-signs- ya better mean what you promised, get black bikinis, and lets head off to sentosa!! leave this place with memorable memories... =) *never gonna forget you*

hahas, sorry if i sound like some mother or something but oh well, anyway the song ''who we are'' would remain representing us.. personally dedicating this song to you peeps.. =)
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curently hooked up on ''who we are'' from hope partlow, ''everything im not'' from the veronicas, and ''amazed'' from lonestar.

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'' it is a necessary for elimation of pollution!! And im a representative of the truth seeker, i do not give in to lies and dishonesty!!! '' dr. stockmann says...

'' oh, you bet.. i will stand wif you for truth must not be hidden, diluted or altered even when it goes counter the wishes of the majority!! melissa reply..

hahaas, i haf been toking to dr. stockmann.. he is a great man indeed..
well, met him today since.... 1pm or so... wahahas, and when he wanders off, i will start mumbling to myself... me and my imaginary dr.
hmm, wad a boring day... stuff myself in my bedroom studyin' lit. wahahs.. but even so, i guess it won't make much diff. in my results.. lalass... so gonna fail geo. i request for mr leong!!

ok, for now... im gonna eat my dinner...
mel' sara: love you sara!!
foolishness is not to be attempted..=)
so toodles, smuggs and kisses....

omg, this is really so outdated... wahahas..

like gosh, friggin' busy wif exams.. AND my mum had confiscated my phone and my i.pod, how bad my life can be.. urghhsss...my only one connection device is gone.. gone gone for life and my mum's using my fone.. and imposing as me!!!!!!!! mE !! ..... alright, actually im not dat desperate, i CAN survive without it.. hmm unlike.. rae? wahahas.. [got you girl.. wonder hu's been msgin loadds these days..]

well, went to study at ginza mac's just now with my beloved girls: rae, sara, jing ying n fel... was having problems crampinig all dat lit. notes into my head.. im still yet to worry e maths, chemistry, physics, english2, chinese2, omg... art.. im still yet to start on them.. urghhss. mid year reasults sre gonna be as sucky as commontest#1... im so gonna buck up for end of year, and make a super big improvement...-winkks-

ok-ay, lets get off from studies at the moment, need a break!! -kitkat!-

oh yea, felicia!! rmb that stupid reckless bus driver?!? we were flung to the front of the bus... oh gosh, and the lady infront of me... no, dun let go... dun push me... my fingers arent able to hold it anymore.. and.. KABOOM, i land on lil. fel.. wahahas.. and ouch, dat really hurts... hmm, lemme tink, and nice shows we watch these month.. ''bullshark!!'' =)

hmm, wad haf we been doin lately?................................................... oh, .......hmm............. still thinking............................. oH, we been stuffing ourself wif chocolates!! and mangos.. my mum is crazy over it tis month.. she bought 18 of them and 5 days later or so she buy them again.. 8... 5.. and i, who used to love mangos is getting sick of it now... but i still love them.. wahahas.... fat, getting fat indeed... and i just ate cake last week or sth... miss portia tan's birthday... well, a little of exaggerations on it though... wonder if its gonna be the same for mrs goh........ lalas, shalln say anything else... =)

alright, gonna stop here.. im changing my skin now.. =)

so longg lalas... xoxo.

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